Heavy Laden

Christ Church Charlotte

Heavy Laden

June 12, 2024 • Connor Gwin

Have you ever had one of those days that is impossibly full? Have you ever looked at your calendar for the next day and felt that pit in your stomach as you see each time block filled with a commitment? Those days when your feet hit the ground and you accelerate to meet the pace of your calendar until you are back in bed at night.

Maybe this happens to you every day.

We can survive such days now and then. We can even string a few together when it is called for. Think exam week in college or residency in medical school or those first weeks with a newborn baby.

This is not how we are meant to live. And yet, our current zeitgeist is marked by this frantic, frenetic fullness for almost everyone. (How are you doing? Busy!)

Jesus said that to live this way is to be heavy laden. He compared it to walking around with a weighted vest and two dumbbells in your hands and wondering why you feel weighed down. He said that many people are trapped laboring and carrying heavy burdens. Does that sound like anyone you know?

Jesus diagnosed the problem: people are weighed down by the expectations that have been put on them. We are all struggling to be enough. We all feel the pressure to be the best we can be in every aspect of our lives. Our culture (or family or self-judgement) tells us that we should give 100% to everything we do. The trouble, of course, is that we can’t give our all to more than one thing. No one has more than 100% to give. We are finite creatures with finite time and finite focus. That doesn’t stop us from trying until our days are impossibly full and we can’t stand to check our calendar to see the script for tomorrow’s striving.

Like a good physician, Jesus diagnoses the problem and offers a prescription.

“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)

The solution is Jesus. Start your day with Him before the train of anxiety leaves the station. Read the Gospels before you read the news and hear Jesus's deep desire to free people (that includes you) from their burdens. Schedule prayer and rest like your life depends on it because it does. Pray to know the grace, mercy, and tenderness of Jesus whose heart is impossibly full of love for workaholics, people-pleasers, and over-committers like you and me.

Heart Prayers and the Living God

August 29, 2024

Over the course of my life, I’ve prayed countless prayers. “Help. Thanks. Yes! Wow! How long?” and “Why?” are just a few. I have prayed these prayers in the silence of my heart, while weeping at the bedside of friends and family, and in public places all over the globe. Looking back, I can say that often undergirding these prayers is a deep, abiding sense that no outcome is fixed, that God is as engaged in real time with what’s happening as I am, and that often all I have is the hope that what God has said is true; namely, that no matter what I face, I will never walk alone. If you’re anything like me, maybe you too have come to realize that where our feet are planted is often the hardest place to pray. Our minds often get stuck somewhere between the experiences we’ve had and the things we most hope for. But to pray in the now, to be here, to open ourselves all over again to the possibility of divine intervention – that is the holy stuff of faith – tested, proved, and ever being worked out in real time. This dance of hope, real life, and prayer is one of the reasons why I’m a Christian. Without an incarnational and God-can-be-God kind of faith, my spiritual practices and ego would get trapped, rushing forward to thinking the outcomes of my prayers depend on me. But my baptismal priesthood and my vocational priesthood call me to let my prayers be shaped not only by life itself but by life in very specific times and places with faith in a God who can fill them all over again. I wonder, if you pause and look around, or maybe close your eyes and just listen with your heart, what prayer are you yearning to speak today? What are the desires of your heart, or the lament of your soul, or the dreams yet unspoken? What might a prayer sound like that trusts you are not alone and that God can open a way? Try it. Y’all, we know that God is not a God of quick fixes or easy answers. AND, we can and should always pray for the miraculous. After all, if the Bible and the Church stand as witnesses to the presence of a Living God, what else do we really have, other than our faith, our community, and hope in a movement of God’s Spirit yet to be revealed? Amen.

What do I do with my faith?

August 21, 2024

At the most recent vestry meeting, parishioner and vestry member Laurie Howell offered this wonderful and thought-provoking devotion. I’m grateful for her reminder about how our weekly experience of worship calls us to wake up to the reality of God moving in the world and how sometimes re-imagining our beloved words of worship can help us to do just that! Enjoy. I have a confession to make. I often zone out during church. Yes, I do. I said it. I zone out during various points in the service, but I am almost guaranteed to zone out as we recite the Nicene Creed. I think it was during Christian Essentials when our group spent an evening pondering just how surprising it is that we so quickly profess that Jesus was born of a Virgin, was crucified, died, was buried, and then He rose again. We can all recite the rest of the creed. The question for me after saying it is: What do I DO with my faith in this Jesus who was born, crucified, died, and then rose again? What do I do out there in this world where there is so much pain, loss, death, destruction, division, war, violence, and suffering? Some of you may remember that Bishop Sam read from the Prayer Book of the Anglican Church of Brazil during his recent visit for confirmations. Here are the words from the Brazilian profession of faith: We believe in GOD We believe in the gifts of poor people In the audacity of the poets In the boldness of the prophets In the inspiration of the artists We believe in JESUS We believe in the humility to serve In the courage to change In the joy of celebration In the respect of differences In bread for every table In comfort for every sadness We believe in the SPIRIT We believe in the hope to begin again In the beauty of solidarity In justice for every oppression In compassion in the face of pain In love, the human divine gift. I don’t know about you, but I was really floored by these words. They are so meaningful to me; and instructive too. I can recite those words and wonder: Am I recognizing and looking for the gifts of poor people? Am I paying attention to the poets and their audacity? How do the prophets speak boldly to me? What artists in my life inspire me? Do I show humility when I serve? Do I have the courage to change? Do I believe that others can change? Do I show joy when I celebrate? How do I respect differences and encourage others to respect differences? Do I make sure there is bread at every table and appreciate the bread at my own? How do I honor and seek comfort for sadness? Do I look for the SPIRIT? Where is my hope in beginning again? With whom do I seek solidarity? How and when do I demand justice for oppression? When and how do I show compassion in the face of pain? And then there is LOVE. Do I remember daily that love is THE human-divine gift? I’ll be honest again and make another confession. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about how much I would prefer for us to recite these words on Sundays. Don’t worry, I am not attempting a liturgical coup here. I am simply exploring for myself how to pay better attention in church. The truth is it is my own work to focus on the words that we DO HAVE in our beautiful book of Common Prayer. So, I am going to try and improve my concentration on Sundays, and I am ALSO going to find a way to incorporate the instructive, meaningful words from the Anglican Prayer Book of Brazil into my own daily life. After all, church isn’t just on Sunday.

We Belong to Each Other

August 14, 2024

“So then, putting away falsehood, let all of us speak the truth to our neighbors, for we are members of one another.” - Ephesians 4:25, NRSV “Let’s all stop lying and agree to speak the truth to each other. Because we belong to each other.” - God’s Words, My Voice (GWMV) This past Sunday’s reading from the Letter to the Ephesians got my attention, and it resonated with others as well. The version from GWMV is what we read at the blended service in All Saints’ Hall. I like how direct and non-churchy it is. The focus of the passage (Ephesians 4:25 – 5:2) is about how we are to live into the future, but predicated on a sure foundation: God’s promises from the past. How we live today, tomorrow, and beyond is our response to the grace, mercy, and love that God has shown us time and again. Our baptismal vows remind us that we are “marked as Christ’s own forever,” and that we are called to “respect the dignity of every human being.” Every human being, not just the ones we choose to call friend or neighbor or family. Why? Because, as the GWMV puts it, we belong to each other. This passage got my attention because it feels to me that our culture has reached a point where people often feel free to say whatever we want, no matter the consequences. No matter whether we have verified the veracity of something we are passing along on social media. No matter what harm it might do to relationships. No matter if it takes attacking the character of our ‘opponent’ or bending the data to fit our needs. I think P.T. Barnum is credited with saying, “If you say it often enough and loud enough, people will start to believe you.” As Christians, we face a challenge and an opportunity to speak the truth because we belong to each other, we are members of one another. Socrates, who lived about 500 years before both Jesus Christ and the author of the Letter to the Ephesians, said that before we speak, we should ask ourselves three questions: Is it true? Is it kind? Is it necessary/helpful? I think both Jesus and the writer of Ephesians would agree. We can still disagree with someone without castigating them to outer darkness. We can enter into conversation with a heart open to becoming less rigid in our perspective. We can truly listen without already considering how we’re going to respond while the other person is still speaking. Even when we don’t see eye to eye, we can still see heart to heart. This world, this country, this city need our witness as Christians that truth matters. John Inazu, the Sally D. Danforth Distinguished Professor of Law and Religion at Washington University will be the Faith Forum guest on Sunday, October 6 at 10 am in All Saints’ Hall. He is the author of Learning to Disagree: The Surprising Path to Navigating Differences with Empathy and Respect. Join us for a series of book discussions on Wednesdays August 28, September 25, and October 9 at 7 pm in St. Francis A. May we all be able to feel more connected while still maintaining the strength of our convictions and our faith. +